Incoherent Ramblings of a Madman

chrissurra @ 2004-07-08T23:42:00

2004-07-09T03:42:14Z

Soon the why and the how are gone and all thats left is the feeling...

chrissurra @ 2004-07-08T23:39:00

2004-07-09T03:39:18Z

Life is a series of circles, what goes around comes around. However,each circle is preempted by a decison....could one decision change the rest of the circles following it? Or am I merely thinking outside the box and in circles?

Prophetic or pathetic? You be the judge:-P

chrissurra @ 2004-04-01T14:04:00

2004-04-01T19:01:47Z

1. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

2. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

3. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

4. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

5. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

6. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

7. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

8. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

9. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

10. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

11. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

12. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

chrissurra @ 2004-03-30T17:57:00

2004-03-30T22:54:57Z

Love...

People claim they want love
to be loved
Most equate love with a monatery value
OMG I LOVE HIM HE BOUGHT ME A LOUIE BAG
Where are the people who love a person for who they are,
Not for what or who they wear
Why is love used so quickly
I LOVE THIS SONG
Love is an emotional, spiritual connection
between two people
That unspoken bond that no one else sees
Where are the people who want real true love
The I'm with you no matter what love
Not the this is tough so Im gonna run love
One out of two marriages fail in this country
People have noting to fight for
Its easier to give up then to make love work
Yes love is work
But if its real love, its not hard work....

chrissurra @ 2004-03-14T02:28:00

2004-03-14T07:26:58Z

Perfection
A single moment
Theres nothing else
The world stops
No one else
For that moment
Forever
inscribed in a memory
that day I met you

chrissurra @ 2004-03-14T02:11:00

2004-03-14T07:10:32Z

A very wise girl told me this and this is what Im looking for, if anyone stumbles across it let me know....

being with someone who is my best friend, lover, and much more... someone i can fully trust... and someone who feels as strongly about me as i do about them....

My eternal search continues...

chrissurra @ 2004-01-18T03:20:00

2004-01-18T08:20:08Z

Either youre with me or against me, choose now,,,, if youre with me great, if not get out of my way...

"They dont paint pictures they just trace me" -- Jay Z

chrissurra @ 2004-01-18T03:06:00

2004-01-18T08:06:57Z

I was sitting here reading all my poerty and I noticed how other people affect me, then I thought why do these people have any affect on me, why are they able to have any power over me? Guess what things are changing...

Ive noticed that Ive helped alot of people, heard countless problems and put other people before me, people that dont deserve it, people who are nice to my face but badmouth me when Im not around...

Then I recalled a point in time when I was unable to be stopped, I was driven like never before in my life
and I tapped into that again today....

Why am I helping people that honestly dont deserve it? Where was someone to make me feel better when we were piss poor, and I was abused unmercifully at school...where was my help?

There wasnt anyone, there was ME, I solved my own problems, I cured my own depression, I got my life back on track, I did all these things because I knew down deep I had potential to be great.

Id like to thank certain nameless people who really truly cared for me.I will love them in ways they cant even begin to know, you are angels in my eyes for taking time to make sure Im as good as I can be...

Someone told me that Im not afraid of failure, Im afraid of success, I know how to deal with failure, but what if all of my dreams came true, how would I be able to handle that?
They are right, I now see what I can do, I see whats in front of me, I see that I need that fire back in me, I need to get back what I had and mix it with what I have now...

Basically anyone who counted me out, anyone who thought I turned soft, anyone who thought that the old me was dead and buried, IM BACK MOTHERFUCKERS!!

Guess what? All of you mediocre people out there watch out, the only reason you were able to shine was because I was afraid to get in the game and fail.....Its a matter of time before I prove all of you wrong anyway so enjoy it while it lasts...

This might not make sense to anyone, and it doesnt matter to me, its a new day, my fears are dead,I now know I needed all these failures to make my story of success that much greater...

chrissurra @ 2004-01-18T00:52:00

2004-01-18T05:52:18Z

You dont need to look like a model for me to adore you...you just need to love me and be loyal....50 cent

chrissurra @ 2004-01-16T00:40:00

2004-01-16T05:40:19Z

As I walk down the hallway
That is my mind
I see many doors
Dirty floors,
Broken windows,
and promises
I come to a door,
Inside at a desk
sits a boy
Crying and confused,
battered and bruised
Torured by his own feelings
of inadequacy and
Wasted potential
That boy is in me,
Still confused
No longer bruised
Plenty of fears,
But no more tears.....

chrissurra @ 2004-01-16T00:21:00

2004-01-16T05:21:32Z

As I stare at this blank page
The lines resemble bars
My mind is locked up
I cant set it free
I need an idea,
how to escape
from my prison
of solitude....

chrissurra @ 2004-01-16T00:17:00

2004-01-16T05:17:28Z

Well a person whos opinion really matters to me told me that she loves my shorter ones so I'll stick to shorter ones for a while, and try to expand my creativity....

My words are chosen,
carefully linked
to show you
How i think
and feel,
Just how I deal
and heal
my pain....

chrissurra @ 2004-01-15T02:45:00

2004-01-15T07:45:12Z

This entry is for anyone who doubts that these are my words, every poem or thought that is written here that isnt mine I have given credit to the writer, anything else is mine...

I take the fact that people dont believe that these are truly mine as a compliment, obviously my work is better then I thought, why else would people continue to believe that I didnt write it?

A better question is why do you feel the need to criticize someone who chooses to express himself, better still what give you the right to judge me.....

For everyone else who gives me positive feedback, Thank you, you guys are actually giving me more and more confidence in my work....

Thanks
Chris =0P

chrissurra @ 2004-01-15T02:36:00

2004-01-15T07:36:11Z

Dreams are the food
to keep our soul alive
The monotony of life
slowly kills our spirit
We need to dream
to let our conscious soar
To think and feel
without boundaries
To make ourselves
feel better,
think better
Live better....

chrissurra @ 2004-01-15T02:27:00

2004-01-15T07:27:35Z

Shes out there
I dont know where
I feel shes there,
I swear
I see her smile
in my mind
I feel her hand
in mine
I can see her
I cant find her
Are you her?
Do you know her?
Send her to me
I promise not to hurt her
Ill only love her
So please send her to me.....

chrissurra @ 2004-01-15T02:21:00

2004-01-15T07:21:13Z

The breath of life leaves my lungs
I breathe you in
I feel your love
Like a warm blanket
Sheilding me from the cold
cruel world
You and I
Sharing our thoughts
and laughs
You smile
I feel whole,
as if im in a dream
Memories of a day to come....

chrissurra @ 2004-01-15T02:15:00

2004-01-15T07:15:04Z

As I sit here and reminisce
With this blank page
Im forced to remember
My pain and anger
that I caused
I want you to know
My sorrow and hapiness,
My thoughts,
My pain,
I know your plate of life
is full,
Heres a slice of mine
for you to taste....

chrissurra @ 2004-01-13T02:27:00

2004-01-13T07:27:57Z

My brain storms rain down so heavy it hurts your head......You wont stop my reign till after Im dead...

chrissurra @ 2004-01-12T01:17:00

2004-01-12T06:17:55Z

Money talks....thats why I cant hear you...

chrissurra @ 2004-01-11T03:07:00

2004-01-11T08:07:30Z

Hmmm I love bitterness!!

This are my words
for you to criticize
To tear apart
and look
for my hidden agenda
Use my words as weapons
To beat and batter
my soul
You were always good
at that
Too good in fact
I loved you
Now I just love
to hate you
and what you stand for

chrissurra @ 2004-01-11T02:57:00

2004-01-11T07:57:31Z

This guy can write, Id love to be half the writer he is and yes its Mr Richard Marx....

Whenever I’m weary
From the battles that raged in my head
You made sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way, but still you
Seem to understand
Now & forever,
I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I’m holding a fortune
That heaven has given to me
I’ll try to show you
Each and every way I can
Now & forever,
I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries
And always be sure
That I won’t be alone, anymore
If I’d only known you were there
All the time,
All this time. . .

Until the day the ocean
Doesn’t touch the sand
Now & forever
I will be your man

chrissurra @ 2004-01-11T02:47:00

2004-01-11T07:47:57Z

Your smile make my day
It’s simple your dimples
Your eyes your lips your thighs got me hypnotized

You got to bet big to win big....lucky Im a gambling man

chrissurra @ 2004-01-10T22:07:00

2004-01-11T03:07:10Z

Well Im proud of myself, I layed everything out on the line and instead of writing poems or masking my feelings I told her what I felt, and it didnt work out like I hoped or expected...

But for the first time in my life I took a shot, yes I grew some balls and took a fucking shot so Im proud of myself, instead of wondering now I know...

Well kinda, I know as much as she does, which is all I can ask.....

I got off the sideline and got in the game...I missed all my shots...but I was in the game

chrissurra @ 2004-01-10T03:58:00

2004-01-10T08:58:46Z

"You don't know the relief I get, after I spit out three 16 [bar verses of lyrics], because that's one in the bucket for me. The hard part is done. I got out all that shit that was in me," he explained. "I take my time with everything that I write because for every person that's not listening there's three people that are. And I don't ever want it to be said that I fucked the game up." -- Method Man

chrissurra @ 2004-01-10T03:30:00

2004-01-10T08:30:47Z

Basics in the basement, waste it
Asking my dog for advice so when he can't say shit
my hatred is, fueled just give me a sign
And I let the world know that the city is mine, what?......

Y'all want to know how I flow just seek and you find
I'm like a brain in the voicebox, I speak my mind

--The City Is Mine - JayZ